Kids are a delight.
They have the sweetest, most excited generosity.
They wear cute clothes.
They know how to delight in everything from cats to fountains to roof tops.
They have adventures in their heads, and look beautiful no matter what they are doing.
Kids are a delight- but most days I am miserable. I can see how awesome my life is, but I can’t convince my heart to stop generating overwhelming waves of frusteration, disastisfaction, and self pity. I don’t think I’m unusual in this.
God created us women to serve. Look in Genesis and 1 Peter and you will see that God created us so that our beauty shows up most in serving, gently and quietly.
So if we were created with the ability to be God’s hands and love towards others it makes sense that Satan would much rather we focus on ourselves. God made us women to serve others, but Satan has robbed us of the joy and peace and beauty that God built into this purpose by convincing us we must also ensure that our needs are met.
I can write a long list of things I should have that I don’t. I could give that list to any christian woman and I bet they would agree with it and tell me I needed to “fill my emotional tank.” I even saw an awesome movie recently that told moms they needed to put on their own oxygen masks first, but I have to stop and think- what is there on that list that can fill me?
Can girl time make me stop feeling like no one cares? Could a run or an adequate wardrobe make me feel beautiful? Could a romantic date with my husband make me not care when my kids won’t listen? I think I could get every good thing a girl could have and still be miserable. I think my list is just an excuse to not fight the battle in my mind.
God calls all humanity to joy. Philipians 4:4 “Rejoice in the Lord ALWAYS, and again I say rejoice.” And the gospel- Christ dieing so my stupidity isn’t my definition- is reason enough to rejoice. Psalm 118:29 says “Give thanks to the Lord, He is good; For his lovingkindness is everlasting.” Psalm 118 says God has opened the gates of righteousness and thanks to God we can go through them. God has saved us. Not only has God removed every mistake you’ve ever made- and for me that is the only way I can hold my head up- but He has taken charge of the future and will spin it to your advantage. Finally, He has crafted this very minute to give you a taste of Himself. All that means freedom from guilt, from fear, from stress, from all my excuses for misery.
As women, Satan knows He can block us from this joy if he can just get us to focus on ourselves. Our emotions make his job easy. The Bible says to take every thought captive, and I think that also means every feeling. Daily I am overwhelmed by my feelings, but God is calling me to contentment- to spending my energy on the purpose He has given me rather than my feelings. To trusting that He will meet my needs and I need only to live the life He unfolds before me. To call on Him in my stress and act on the answers He gives me. God made me for a beautiful job, and He is waiting to train to me to perfect joy in it, if I will choose to be ruled by the gospel instead of my feelings. So, I am making a commitment to contentment- to say “This is the day the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it- no excuses.”